I find that making decisions has become more and more difficult the older we get. Where should I go to school? What will I be when I grow up? What kind of an impact do I want to make in this life, in this world? Should I cook or order take-out? If I cook it's healthy....if I order take out it's quick, right??
I recently 'jumped the gun' and left my short life that I had begun to build in Santiago de Chile to come home. I spent a hefty price on a plane ticket that I booked the moment I knew in my gut I had to come back home and arrived there just 36 hours after the decision had been made. I am here now and I realized that making that decision and dealing with the consequences was one of the easiest things I have done in a while. Although, I have something to look forward to which is the birth of my first niece, everything suddenly seems easier. I have decided that living life in the moment, though a rather annoying kitchy phrase that people post on pinterest relentlessly, is actually an exhilarating and comforting way to live when one actually does live life in the moment. The world in which we live in forces us to think about and make an overwhelming amount of decisions. Some of course much more life impacting than others, but still decisions that I find are harder to make than ones which had to be made by our parents and grandparents.
Not everyone has the luxury to live in the moment. However, everyone might be a little less burdened by the hardships that life brings upon us now that we are a globalized and constantly plugged-in world, if we stop thinking, and just do. What does one have to lose and what is the point of asking "what if"? Nothing is meant to be, yet everything and everyone are just being because they are.
Now, I will return to South America. No doubt. Fortunately I am content where I am. No one knows me better than me. It used to be that people depended on each other much more in the past compared to now for their own survival from birth until death. I think that still reins true. However, we have also become more isolated from each other and therefore must adapt to everything this new world has to offer. While we most definitely must depend upon each other, upon our family, our lovers and our friends, we must most of all depend upon the truth that lies within ourselves. I have never valued listening to myself more in my life than right now in this moment.
After all, "Know thyself" is a saying that goes back to the Ancient Greeks, the writer Pausanias (of who I have never heard until I gave it a google). Do I know myself? I am not sure. I do know that I have faith in the decisions I make and the path I am paving for myself in this world.
